5 is my secret number. Five people I can trust, five people left.

Gosh, you are no surprise, I knew I couldn't count on you. But damnit everyone has left me. How is it that pain drives people away? When I need you the most you're out the door. You call that friendship? You call that love? Fine, then I don't want it anymore.

And how the fuck can you be so supportive of everyone else who's just crying for attention? I'm on the floor screaming - calling your name and you go and comfort them? The liars. The one person I truly hate.

<3 91.12.16 - 08.01.15 </3

If I could rewind, I'd save you. My stomach turns everytime I think of you. I know I can't rewind and fix it. I will never know you. We will never be friends and that kills me. -ahh fuckit- these kinds of things shouldn't happen, you should still be here. People miss you, people need you. Your mother needs you, and your brother. Gosh.. that day was so dark for all of us. I will never forget the look in her eyes. I can still see it.

rest in peace, love.

maybe

if my heart

stopps beating

it won't hurt this much?